True love waits..

Indeed. I always believed this phrase.

Year 2007 when I received Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour. Ito yung taon na wala akong gustong ibang gawin kundi maglagi sa Church. Ito din yung mga panahon na I made a covenant with God to stay away from sexual immorality.

It was August 2007 nung makita ko yung sarili ko na lumalago. I am growing in His love, reading His word everyday, willing to travel 1 to 2 hours just to be in the Church at madalas overnight pa. Dun ko nasabi sa sarili ko na hindi na ko mawawala sa Lord. Ito na yung gagawin ko habang buhay.. That’s what I thought.

Year 2008, I found myself being addict to online games. Yung tipong wala ka ng tulog makapaglaro ka lang and because of that, I found myself not attending the Church anymore.. Dun ko nakita yung sarili ko na papalayo sa Lord.. I was hooked on playing online games, because of that, nag-stop ako ng pag-aaral, at dahil sa wala akong ginagawa, nagka-boyfriend ako.

It was 2009 when I found myself crying because of being lost. Hindi ko mabilang kung ilang gabi akong umiiyak telling God how much I missed Him, how much I long for His presence. Gigising ako ng umaga ng walang purpose, everything is a mess.. Hindi ako nag-aaral and I was involved in a wrong relationship, and because of that, the covenant I made with the Lord is broken. I didn’t fulfill my promise to Him.

2010, nag-decide na ako. I started praying and reading His word again. It was then when He reminded me this phrase, TRUE LOVE WAITS. Awwwww. Two things. One, God loves me so much that’s why He’s always waiting for me. Yung gabi-gabi kong pag-iyak sa Kanya sa kakaintay, Siya pala talaga yung tunay na nagiintay. Two. Ang tunay na nagmamahal, nagiintay kahit matagal. I finally realized that the relationship I had that time is not the kind of relationship that God wants. He wants me to value myself kung paano Niya ko vina-value, gusto Niyang mahalin ako kung paano Niya ko minamahal.

June 2010, I finally let go and choose to love God first more than anything or anyone else. Yun na din yung pinaka-malaking turning point ng life ko, with God’s provision, nakapag-aral ako ulit. ๐Ÿ™‚ Everything is back on track. ๐Ÿ˜€

Today, masasabi ko talaga na being with God and seeing how much He loves me is more than enough. Yung mapapakanta ka ng I found this world to be not enough for me.. La la la.

Two things I learned. One, walang perpektong sitwasyon, walang perpektong tao pero may #PerfectLove. Ayie. Two, it’s never too late. ๐Ÿ™‚ Never too late to change and to embrace God’s promises.

In regards to waiting, still waiting. True love waits eh. ๐Ÿ˜€

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