Kita Kita

Isa. Isa beses kong tinanong ang Lord kung baket.. Baket sa dinami-dami ng tao, ako pa. Ako pa yung hindi makaka-experience ng bagay na pinakahahangad ko.

Dalawa. Dalawang beses kong tinanong ang sarili ko kung anong dapat gawin para hindi ko maramdaman ang pinaka-masaket na pakiramdam na naramdaman ko. Haha.

Tatlo. Tatlong gabi ako umiyak sa Kanya. Umiyak ako dahil hindi ko na kaya, hindi ko na kayang magkunwari pa. Hindi ko na kayang sabihin na okay lang ako kahit hindi na.

Apat. Apat na beses kong pinigilan ang sarili ko na sabihin sa Itay ko na ayoko, ayoko, ayoko. Ayoko dahil kahit kelan hindi ko mararamdaman ang komportableng usapan.

Lima. Limang beses kong sinabi sa sarili ko na magiging maingat ako. Maingat sa pinagkatiwalang prinsipyo.

Anim. Anim na taon kong ipinalangin ang akala kong bubuo sa pagkatao ko.

Pito. Pitong konpirmasyon ang binigay Niya. Konpirmasyon na HINDI ang sagot niya sa panalangin ko.

Walo. Walong buwan kong dinala ang pagpapanggap na okay lang ako..

Siyam. Siyam na beses kong sinabi sa sarili ko na “HINDI man ang sagot, may aral akong napulot.. ”

Sampu. Sampung taon kong dinala ang kalungkutan na ngayon ay iiwan ko na.

Ngayon, bumalik tayo sa isa.

Hindi ko man naranasan o mararanasan pa kung anong pakiramdam ng buo ang pamilya, ISA lang ang masasabi ko, hindi ko man nakita ang pamilya ko na buo, nakita ko ang Panginoon na nakapagbuo. πŸ™‚

Whom He Chooses.

“be sure to appoint over you the king the LORD your God chooses. He must be from among your own brothers. Do not place a foreigner over you, one who is not a brother Israelite.”
~ Deuteronomy 17:15

Yung kahit sino iasar sayo confident ka.. Kasi alam mong may pinili Siya. πŸ™‚

Maximize

The Story:

Kinailangan kong mag-ayos ng bed ko this afternoon. At ‘pag sinabi kong mag-ayo ng bed, hindi lang siya basta “make bed” may mga anik anik pa siyang nakalagay. Haha.

Like this:

Since maliit at cute lang ako, minaximize ko yung space ng bed ko. πŸ˜‚

Hymn to a Good Wife

A good woman is hard to find, and worth far more than diamonds.
Her husband trusts her without reserve, and never has reason to regret it.
Never spiteful, she treats him generously all her life long.
She shops around for the best yarns and cottons, and enjoys knitting and sewing.
She’s like a trading ship that sails to faraway places and brings back exotic surprises.
She’s up before dawn, preparing breakfast for her family and organizing her day.
She looks over a field and buys it, then, with money she’s put aside, plants a garden.
First thing in the morning, she dresses for work, rolls up her sleeves, eager to get started.
She senses the worth of her work, is in no hurry to call it quits for the day.
She’s skilled in the crafts of home and hearth, diligent in homemaking.
She’s quick to assist anyone in need, reaches out to help the poor.
She doesn’t worry about her family when it snows; their winter clothes are all mended and ready to wear.
She makes her own clothing, and dresses in colorful linens and silks.
Her husband is greatly respected when he deliberates with the city fathers.
She designs gowns and sells them, brings the sweaters she knits to the dress shops.
Her clothes are well-made and elegant, and she always faces tomorrow with a smile.
When she speaks she has something worthwhile to say, and she always says it kindly.
She keeps an eye on everyone in her household, and keeps them all busy and productive.
Her children respect and bless her; her husband joins in with words of praise:
β€œMany women have done wonderful things, but you’ve outclassed them all!”
Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades.
The woman to be admired and praisedΒ is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God.
Give her everything she deserves! Festoon her life with praises!

Sa Baclaran

Currently waiting here for someone.. Need to attend sa birthday party ni cute Shawn.

The Story:

While waiting, nagikot-ikot ako to window shop. I want to see some Journals here kung kasing ganda ba nung nasa Divi. While finding it, andami ko ng dinaanang pasilio, pero di ko padin makita, hanggang sa nagtanong na ko kung saan may ganun, guess what, kung saan ako nang-galing kanina pagkababa ko ng LRT dun meron. At naisip ko na may mga ganun pala talaga noh.. Yung akala mo wala sa lugar kung nasaan ka ngayon kaya naghanap ka pa sa iba, pero in the end, dun ka pa din naman ituturo, dun ka pa din pupunta. Hays. Napagod ka na kakahanap at pinatagal mo pa, di kasi nagtanong kaagad. Yan tuloy. Hahaha. Hugot lang pala?!

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That thing called PANGAKO.

In reaching your dream, everyone has their own stories.. And behind those stories, there’s this thing that we called promises..

“In order for me to be promoted, mas gagalingan ko sa work..”

“I-hi-hit ko na mas makabenta ko ng marami para makabili na ko ng kotse..”

We may always not be aware, but in reaching our dreams, we often make promises.. Nangangako ka na gagawin mo yung best mo, na itotodo mo ang lahat, atbp.. Minsan sa sarili mo, madalas sa ibang tao.

But what if you always failed in fulfilling those promises.. Masakit diba? Ako, ilang beses na kong nangako sa sarili ko to give my best, to give my 100% effort, to give it all! But guess what.. I sometimes fail, most of the time pa nga. Dumating na din ako sa point na ayoko na talaga (kanina lang.. haha, mga 20 minutes ago), because I keep on failing.. Pag nasasabi ko na, “Ayoko na po talaga..” God will really do something and He will remind me with His promises.. Totoo talaga yung sinabi ni Zayin.. His promise preserves my life.. Hindi yung kung anong pangako ko.

In every promises of God in my life, dun ako nakakakuha ng lakas at ng pag-asa. Strength to overcome and hope to continue. Naks. Higit sa lahat, mafail ko man ang mga pangako ko sa sarili ko, may magagandang pangako na hindi nagfe-fail, His promises. πŸ™‚

“Now I am about to go the way of all the earth. You know with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the Lord your God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has failed.” ~Joshua 23:14

Just need some help, pwedeng ‘pag nabasa niyo to, PM me in fb or kung kahit saan, remind me once again with this verse. Whew. Thanks in advance. πŸ™‚


Walang Mababaw.

After this, the word of the Lord came to Abram in a vision:
β€œDo not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield,  your very great reward. ”
Genesis 15:1

March 17, 2014 when I first received this Word. Naalala ko pa nun yung sinabi ko sa Lord na ikinatatakot ko, nakakatawa kasi napakababaw lang. As in. Haha. Ayoko na ngang sabihin yun sa Lord kasi alam alam ko na naman ang sagot.. (Edi wow.) Nung nag-devotion ako ito yung sinagot Niya.. That He is my shield and my very great reward. πŸ™‚

That’s the day that I realized na wala pala talagang mababaw o malalim sa Lord, basta ‘pag anak Niya ang nagtanong He is delighted to answer. Whew.

Goodmorning. πŸ™‚

True love waits..

Indeed. I always believed this phrase.

Year 2007 when I received Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour. Ito yung taon na wala akong gustong ibang gawin kundi maglagi sa Church. Ito din yung mga panahon na I made a covenant with God to stay away from sexual immorality.

It was August 2007 nung makita ko yung sarili ko na lumalago. I am growing in His love, reading His word everyday, willing to travel 1 to 2 hours just to be in the Church at madalas overnight pa. Dun ko nasabi sa sarili ko na hindi na ko mawawala sa Lord. Ito na yung gagawin ko habang buhay.. That’s what I thought.

Year 2008, I found myself being addict to online games. Yung tipong wala ka ng tulog makapaglaro ka lang and because of that, I found myself not attending the Church anymore.. Dun ko nakita yung sarili ko na papalayo sa Lord.. I was hooked on playing online games, because of that, nag-stop ako ng pag-aaral, at dahil sa wala akong ginagawa, nagka-boyfriend ako.

It was 2009 when I found myself crying because of being lost. Hindi ko mabilang kung ilang gabi akong umiiyak telling God how much I missed Him, how much I long for His presence. Gigising ako ng umaga ng walang purpose, everything is a mess.. Hindi ako nag-aaral and I was involved in a wrong relationship, and because of that, the covenant I made with the Lord is broken. I didn’t fulfill my promise to Him.

2010, nag-decide na ako. I started praying and reading His word again. It was then when He reminded me this phrase, TRUE LOVE WAITS. Awwwww. Two things. One, God loves me so much that’s why He’s always waiting for me. Yung gabi-gabi kong pag-iyak sa Kanya sa kakaintay, Siya pala talaga yung tunay na nagiintay. Two. Ang tunay na nagmamahal, nagiintay kahit matagal. I finally realized that the relationship I had that time is not the kind of relationship that God wants. He wants me to value myself kung paano Niya ko vina-value, gusto Niyang mahalin ako kung paano Niya ko minamahal.

June 2010, I finally let go and choose to love God first more than anything or anyone else. Yun na din yung pinaka-malaking turning point ng life ko, with God’s provision, nakapag-aral ako ulit. πŸ™‚ Everything is back on track. πŸ˜€

Today, masasabi ko talaga na being with God and seeing how much He loves me is more than enough. Yung mapapakanta ka ng I found this world to be not enough for me.. La la la.

Two things I learned. One, walang perpektong sitwasyon, walang perpektong tao pero may #PerfectLove. Ayie. Two, it’s never too late. πŸ™‚ Never too late to change and to embrace God’s promises.

In regards to waiting, still waiting. True love waits eh. πŸ˜€

#TagumpayNgPagbabago

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May 07, 2016, Satuday. A day na hinding-hindi ko talaga malilimutan. A day to share to my kids and grandkids. A day to testify sa susunod na henerasyon. A day kung paano ko nasaksihan ang ginawa ng Lord sa pinakamamahal kong Pilipinas. A day wherein one man captured the hearts of sambayang Pilipino.

Sa araw na ‘to, marami akong nakita. Pagkakaisa, pag-ibig, tunay na paglilingkod, pagbabago at tagumpay. πŸ™‚

May 06, 2016, 11:32pm, hindi ako makatulog. Excited kasi sa Meeting de Avance bukas. Prepared everything, dadalin, susuotin, etc.
1pm palang nandun na ko.. And to be honest, sa sobrang excitement to witness this, 2 hours lang ang naitulog ko. XD

While waiting magstart, nagobserve lang ako sa mga taong nag-iintay. And for the first time in my whole life, nakita ko kung paano nagkaisa ang mga Pilipino. Yung kahit hindi mo kilala makikilala mo dahil alam niyo na may common denominator kayo. Whew.

What more can I say? So speechless. 😦 Indeed, change is really coming.. So excited to see the next generation ng maayos at matagumpay. Hohoho.

 

Usapang Value

One of the most beautiful things that my Dad taught me.

The Story:
My Dad is an artist, bata pa lang ako mulat na ko sa industriyang ito, hindi ko lang sinubukang magartista, showbiz e, haha! Kidding. My Dad is a painter, for real. πŸ˜€ Last February, nakabenta na naman siya ng painting niya, and for a treat, ibibili niya ko ng gusto kong Sharpies marker na set. Yey!

Habang nasa National Bookstore kami, tumitingin kami ng mga mamahaling art tools. And nung nakita ko na yung gusto kong Sharpie set, naisip ko sa 500 marami ng makakain dun (haha!) btw, 500+ ata yun. Nung naisip ko yun, sabi ko sa kanya, “Mahal pala Itay.” (Pero pagkain talaga nasa isip ko nyan XD) Then he said to me, “Anak, sa art, hindi naman kailangan mamahalin.. Wala naman sa gamit yung ganda.” Boom. Whew. Biglang nawala yung pagkain sa isip ko.. Oo nga noh? Hindi talaga kailangan mamahalin gamit mo, kasi yung ibang mga sikat na painter hindi din naman mamahalin yung gamit nila.. Pero dahil sila yung gumamit, nagmahal. πŸ˜€

Just like that GREAT LOVE. πŸ™‚ Ito talaga yun. Yung kahit anong tatak mo, because you are loved and created by God, dun tumaas yung value mo. Kaya in the end, hindi ko binili yung Sharpie set. πŸ˜€Β Mga highlighter na lang. Haha.

When God Writes Your Love Story

Hello Jonne. Anyeong. β™‘

How are you? Still remember the day you promised about him? Your promise to wait patiently and faithfully.. πŸ™‚ yung sinabi mo na hindi mo kayang pumili ng taong hindi pinili ng Lord para sayo, kasi yung gusto mo yung whom He chooses.. Ayie.

Right now, ano man ang nararanasan mong longing, loneliness, it will come to pass. Darating din ang time na may makakakwentuhan ka na kung anong nangyari sa buong araw mo, kung ano yung gusto mong kainin ng dinner.. Kung saan mo gustong magpunta ng anniversary niyo. Hays.. Surely, that day will come. Surely there’s a hand for your hand. Ayie. Just wait. Stay and wait. Stay faithful and wait patiently. πŸ™‚

This 2016, marami ka pang challenges na haharapin. Makilala mo man siya o hindi this year, I know na mag-mamature ka. And wherever he is right now, I’m sure his doing the same thing.. Nagiintay din sa #TamangPanahon. Sa perfect timing ng Lord. Kasi alam niya na hindi ka basta-basta. Ikaw yung pinaghahandaan. Whew. πŸ™‚

Wag ka ng malungkot. Darating talaga yung time na yun.. Yung maipakikilala mo na siya sa family and friends mo. Okay? Hold on. Don’t give up. Remember na yung generation na lalabas sayo ay hindi basta-basta, kaya yung mapapangasawa mo hindi din basta-basta. Arachi? πŸ™‚

At wag ka ding mag-alala kung matangkad ba siya o hindi. Kung magaling siyang kumanta o hindi. God knows exactly the perfect match for you. Kaya patuloy ka lang maging confident na ang Lord hindi ka bibigyan ng hindi perfect para sayo.

Hays.. Basta mag-intay ka lang.. Dahil yung galing sa Lord, pleasing and perfect. Mararamdaman mo din yung kilig na mga napapanood mo, at mas maganda pa yun dun. πŸ™‚

Pinaghahandaan. :)

The Story:

Monday, August 10, 2015, galing akong STI for the #DiscoveryGroup. Masaya kaming nagpicture-picture pagkatapos ng discussion namin.

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After sa STI, dumeretso akong Maypajo. Habang nasa jeep ako naalala ko yung mga panahon na nagpupunta kami ni Kuya ng computer shop tapos susunduin kami ni Itay ng madaling araw.. Haha. Yung mga panahong na hindi ko na alam yung ibig sabihin ng future. Pag naaalala ko yun, I’m so amazed kung paano nagmove ang Lord sa life ko.

Nung nasa Maypajo na ko, nakipagbonding ako sa isa kong disciples. I’m so happy to see her, nang-treat siya ng ice cream. πŸ™‚
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After our ice cream moment, umuwi na ko. Ang nakakapagod dun, I need to walk with my wedges papuntang sakayan, dahil may ginagawa sa Hermosa. Whew. That 20 minutes of walking, all I could think about was the pain on my feet. Haha.

While on the jeep, may nareceived akong text, text that breeeeaks my heart (confidential). Haha.

Sa kabila ng mga pangyayari that day, may mga taong naghahanda pala sa aking kaarawan.

Tuesday, after work, pinilit akong ayain ni Ate Anna to jog.. Nagbonding kami pero syempre, as we jog we pray. Hindi pwedeng walang expansion ng Kingdom of God ang mga bagay na ginagawa namin. And in that moment, may mga preparation na palang nangyayari.. πŸ™‚

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To make the long story short, pagkauwi namin, gutom na gutom na ko, kasi during our jog ayaw akong pakainin ni Ate Anna, ayaw niya kong pabilhin ng food. Kaya hindi din talaga ko bumili.. Pagdating namin wala kong ibang hinanap kundi food, and habang kumakain ako, dun na nagsimula ang surpresa. πŸ™‚

Rhema:
I am so amazed that night.. Kahit isang beses hindi ko sila nahalata. Sabi nila phlegma lang daw talaga ko.. (Haha.) Pero dun ko nakita na sa sobrang ka-phlegmahan ko hindi ko na nakikita yung mga ginagawa ng Lord. Kaya that night, wala akong ibang ginawa kundi mag-sorry sa Lord.. All this time nag-focus ako sa gutom ko, sa mga bagay na kailangan ko, not knowing that He’s preparing something for me. Kaya buti na lang may mga Leaders ako na hindi ako hinahayaang mapahamak in buying temptations in this world. Whew. Kaya habang kumakain kami ng mga hinanda nila, I just said to myself that it is really worth the wait. Hinding-hindi mo talaga pagsisisihan yung pag-iintay sa mga promises Niya.

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